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Opinion: In my children, a rainbow, the water, the world
Jeannie Lee writes that her two sons "are like the rainbow because in them is the rainbow of humanity."
December 29th, 2011
08:57 AM ET

Opinion: In my children, a rainbow, the water, the world

Editor’s Note: Jeannie H. Lee is the mother of two bi-racial sons and a stay-at-home mom. She received a Masters of Divinity degree from Yale Divinity School and previously worked as a community organizer with Church Women United.

By Jeannie H. Lee, Special to CNN

I struggle always to describe our boys because, unlike me, with one distinct ethnic identity – Korean – they are many: African, Native American, Korean and probably some Caucasian, too. Words to describe them are abundant – multi-ethnic, multi-racial, blendian, AmeriAsian, AfroAsian. A friend, Rasha, created a new word just for them, BlacKorean. But none really worked for me.

I don’t cry easily or readily but when I first heard Jeni Fujita perform her song, “The Color of Water,” I let the tears flow in that dark corner of the club. She spoke to my heart, the part of me that’s a mother to two beautiful boys who I gave birth to with my African-American husband. She gave me words I struggled to find for so long.

Where are you from little daughter?

What's the color of water?

"But mama why is she different than me?"

Baby this is how you were made to be.

Like a rainbow in the sky

Like the color of your eyes

Underneath our skin, we're the same little daughter

Like a rainbow, each race in them is distinct. But the edges blend together just slightly, so it’s clear each is its own. They stretch out to cover the whole sky; a blessing because, in them, there is an abundance of many; and burden because they embody not only one people, but many peoples.

They are like water because water changes color and direction and easily blends with other waters. They are powerful enough to wear away the hardest elements on earth, gentle enough to flow as tears. Like water, they look different, depending on their surroundings, on who is around them or where they are, they look “darker”, “lighter,” are called upon to take on Korean cultural mannerism, or to be a part of the brotherhood of brown boys.

In appearance, genetics and heritage, I am clearly Korean. I was born in Korea. I am American because I moved here with my parents 40 years ago and I’ve adopted and integrated this country into my being. Now, I’m so much more because my two beautiful, incredible sons have pulled me into new worlds I never imagined.

They make me better. They made me really stretch beyond my own Korean boundaries. Because of them, I am no longer only Korean.

By choice, we moved uptown to Harlem, where we could better raise our boys. We sought schools where our boys would be one of many, and to our delight, we have found such diverse schools. Because of these two early choices in our family life, I became engaged with the Latino and African-American communities in ways I had not before. My world before then was very “pale.” Recently, through my involvement at Occupy Wall Street, I find myself speaking passionately for Harlem, a predominantly black community, when clearly, there is not an ounce of genetic blackness in me. I often get puzzling looks from people and I realize it has to do with how I don’t look like they expect me to look. But my connections to Harlem are through our boys. One of the most important reasons why I represent Harlem so passionately is that until our boys can be advocates for themselves, as members of this world, it’s on me to be their voice. I had no choice but to become black myself.

Their great-grandmother on their father’s side is full-blooded Cherokee and so they, too, are members of the tribe. Thankfully, I’ve become good friends with “blendian” friends who opened this community to us, taking us to Pow Wows where our boys are engaged in and exposed to the Native American community, their community. Our youngest has been challenged with developmental delays, including sensory issues that meant he couldn’t stand or tolerate anything rough against his feet. He would wail if I put him in a small patch of grass. At our first Pow Wow three years ago, he ran around barefoot all day.

I practically cried. I knew his Native American ancestors and spirits who helped him overcome this hurdle in life. He changed and continues to change because of the connections and bonds he has with his Native American roots. I had no choice but to become Native American myself.

When our boys were born, I thought they were going to be lonely. I didn’t see many children of multiple ethnic, racial origins and that concerned me. I’m relieved to report that’s not the case, that they won’t be as isolated as I once thought. Their schools and our home community have many students from multi-ethnic and racial backgrounds.

The 2010 census allowed respondents to check off more than one box for racial and ethnic identity. I’m pretty sure we checked off at least three boxes for our boys - black, Asian/Pacific Islander and Native American. Racial politics and self-identification is rapidly and radically changing in this next generation.

Rainbow. Water. Our boys are that. Neither can be held in your hand. Both are slippery. That is our boys, so slippery at times that I can barely hold onto them. But nonetheless, I’m required, mandated to hold onto them - not control them but hold onto them to keep them safe, grounded and prepared for the world that they are, that is theirs.

It’s overwhelming at times and mind-boggling to imagine that the world is these two creatures I am guardian and mother to. I’m responsible for helping to figure out all those strands and raise rightfully and faithfully two boys, soon to be men. It’s overwhelming because it’s so much to encompass, I could become frozen by this challenge. Instead, I embrace it. I look forward to the next day with our rainbow water boys because they make me grow. They make me better. They make me the world.

soundoff (22 Responses)
  1. Juvy

    Do you know this site is sgtegsued by a number of other sites? Nice stuff. Thanks very much!

    February 11, 2012 at 7:36 am | Report abuse |
  2. Lesil

    The Bahai' faith tells us that we are all one in humanity. We are one garden with many beautiful and fragrant flowers. This article is shows how unity is the way to peace.

    January 2, 2012 at 8:47 am | Report abuse |
    • Barbie

      Lovely; simply lovely.

      January 5, 2012 at 11:27 pm | Report abuse |
  3. suki

    Me love you long time

    January 1, 2012 at 11:49 am | Report abuse |
  4. Jehsea

    Finally! Another mother who "gets it!"

    "Your children are not your children. They are the sons and daughters of life's longing for itself. They come through you, but they come not to you. Seek to become more like them, but seek not to make them more like you. For their souls live in the House of Tomorrow, a place you cannot visit, not even in your dreams. The archer's eye sweeps across the arc of infinity in search of the perfect sight in which to mark and set his arrow upon his bow before he draws breath; stills himself; and lets go the straight arrow. You are the stable, living bows from which your children, as arrows, will be set free upon the Earth." – "On Children" from The Prophet by Khalil Gibran.

    January 1, 2012 at 7:39 am | Report abuse |
    • FormerNYer

      That was beautiful Jehsea! Thanks for sharing. Thank You Jeannie H Lee for sharing your experience and the best of everything to you and your beautiful human family.

      January 3, 2012 at 1:42 pm | Report abuse |
  5. Kate Davy

    This brings up a change I am hoping to see soon. I am multi-racial, multi-ethnic and multi-cultural as are my children even more so for their Onondaga/Mohawk father. This article is wonderful but brings up the fact that we shouldn't have to check just one box or leave it for those interviewing us for work or services to make assumptions of our heritage and check what they want...we are all these things! Why should we have to choose. Didn't the One who made us all made us this way for a reason? Why can't we celebrate it all? I know I am proud of all the sacrifices of family who brought me to this point. If we really want to see the potential of us all we would actively seek to be all..together...now!

    December 31, 2011 at 10:43 am | Report abuse |
    • Barbie

      I so agree! We need to all make America the way it should be.

      January 5, 2012 at 11:31 pm | Report abuse |
  6. It is all so simple

    They are Americans.

    December 30, 2011 at 10:37 pm | Report abuse |
  7. Hannah

    I was very moved by this piece. So wonderful that our sons (my son is dominican/eastern-european-jewish/irish/german) are good friends. Here's to organizing/occupying in 2012!!! Here's how I see it: we are all more genetically similar than distinct. Our different cultures are amazing. We have been divided from one another by the divide and conquer tactics/ ideology of the 1% who want us to think that the browner one, the gay one, etc. is our enemy, not our brother/sister. So they can maintain the status quo, e.g., profit for the few on the backs of the many.

    December 30, 2011 at 5:43 pm | Report abuse |
  8. annebeth

    I come from a multi-racial background with a black/white father & a black/indian (cherokee) mother. I love who I am and hope one day soon, we will all be able to respect one another and face the fact that we are all human & earthlings.

    December 30, 2011 at 5:15 pm | Report abuse |
  9. Trinity

    I am You.

    December 30, 2011 at 4:09 pm | Report abuse |
  10. WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL

    I may be of a different religion but I see nothing ugly in you post. Anyone who may has problems.

    December 30, 2011 at 3:21 pm | Report abuse |
  11. WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL

    That was beautiful. And living in a border city many folks are "mixed". And the lighter skinned gets more "respect" than the darker. I long for the day when we just call ourselves HUMAN.

    December 30, 2011 at 3:19 pm | Report abuse |
    • david bainito

      thanku 4 that . it is my desire too

      January 3, 2012 at 12:11 pm | Report abuse |
  12. Jason

    One day soon, our reckless economic and military ignorance will be called an act of war. Who will come save us from ourselves? Will they say they are defending their strategic interests? What if they say they are protecting the freedoms of humanity?

    What if sound money and jobs are only possible when we aren't sending $5 billion out of this country every day?

    What if Christianity teaches peace and not preventative wars and aggression?

    Ron Paul & Jon Huntsman 2012.

    December 30, 2011 at 12:36 pm | Report abuse |
  13. Sungene

    We are ONE. There is no separation or "others".

    December 30, 2011 at 10:34 am | Report abuse |
  14. daniel

    Beautiful.

    December 30, 2011 at 10:18 am | Report abuse |
  15. good news!!

    [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zXKV78VERio&w=640&h=390]

    December 30, 2011 at 10:18 am | Report abuse |
  16. teremist

    Tis not the wrapping on the gift box, that makes the gift INSIDE so sweet.

    December 30, 2011 at 9:42 am | Report abuse |
  17. lin

    Thanks for this beautiful message, Jeannie. I don't think I'll look at a rainbow the same anymore, and for that I am glad. Your thoughts are a gift.

    December 29, 2011 at 8:54 pm | Report abuse |
  18. Unite & Love All!!

    What a beautiful & wonderful story! Though not adopted, this story reminds me of the late Josephine Baker and her "Rainbow Tribe". Though we are All different races, genetics, and cultures, we are still One...creations of the same God. May God Bless this woman and may others see the blatant truth and reality within her words and story.

    Thanks for a Positive Story, CNN!

    For those which attack me & Our Creator, I'm sorry for your lack of Faith and following/entrenched in darkness.

    Love & Peace to The World!

    December 29, 2011 at 6:52 pm | Report abuse |